Today I woke up in such a good mood that I took the time to do my hair, I wore a new shirt, and actually worked on my makeup… and you know what, I felt sexy for the first time since I got pregnant and… big…
The fact that I have stretch marks everywhere or that I have to wear a medium size now didn’t matter because I felt good about myself. I really did. And it showed, making me look a hundred times better than what I really did. I actually got a few complements today, the best one being that motherhood made me more beautiful!
As soon as I started getting big with the pregnancy I started loosing my self-esteem. I felt fat and ugly, and it didn’t matter that people told me I looked good because I simply didn’t believe them. And when the kid was born it got even worse. I thought I would bounce right back to my pre-pregnancy shape but that dream suddenly died when I discover my extra small shirts would barely get pass my shoulders. I remember breaking down in tears when the baby was about a month old because none of my clothes would fit, I even decided to stay home that day thinking I would never get to feel like myself again.
I could only fit into my yoga pants and old large tees, and that didn’t really help get my self-esteem back up. Later someone told me that it was ok for me to look and dress the way I did, I am a mom now and apparently expected to not look nice. But I refuse to live in yoga pants and big tees; I refuse to not feel good about myself. Having a baby takes up all my time but I will not let that bring me down, because I know I look good even if I only get to put my hair up in a ponytail and a bit of eye liner. My kid deserves a sexy momma to go with all that cuteness! And how we feel about ourselves is 99.9% of sexy, the clothes and the rest are only complementary.
I got to see the new me today and I really liked it. Yes, I’m wearing clothes that are two sizes bigger, yes I’m still 12 pounds over my weight, and I know that the baby threw up all over my new outfit but I feel beautiful and happy. Those stretch marks, those tired eyes, and that extra skin around my waist couldn’t be sexier!
Have a very happy weekend!